There are times when we get down on ourselves because we don’t think we are moving forward toward our weight loss goals. Perhaps we are not following our weight loss plan, or we are on again off again in working at losing weight. You may be more successful in your efforts than you thought.
This past year I have learned so much about myself. It is not that I didn’t really already know these things about myself before. It is just that I never acknowledged these things enough to bring them to the forefront of my mind and give myself credit for these accomplishments.
Let me give you and example. You have read a lot about me being an emotional eater. This I have always known about myself. But until I started writing these blogs for Aaron, I never really knew how bad of an emotional eater I am. And not only how bad an emotional eater I am, but what my major triggers are. Since realizing this, I have actually been physically and mentally aware of what I am doing.
Meaning, before if something stressful happened in my life, I would just seek out whatever comfort food I was craving at the time. This was done unconsciously and out of habit.
Now, when something stressful happens, I am actually aware of the physical reaction my body goes through calling me to eat to ease my stress level.
Because I am now so aware of the physical reaction, I can’t deny that I want to deal with stress through eating.
(Editor’s note: Linda is not yet lean, but she does now have the weight loss mindset of the lean)
I am so aware of it now that most times I struggle and fight those demons, and if I give in to eating, I face myself and the consequences, fully aware and fully taking responsibility. It’s strange to say this, but when you are so aware of how your body is reacting to stress and you are so aware of how you want to deal with stress in a negative fashion, it kind of takes the fun and the comfort out of comfort foods.
I find myself looking for other ways to deter binge eating, and I may feel restless, but I also feel more empowered. I know the choice I make if negative was my decision. And when I don’t take the low road, and I just deal with my stress, I walk away feeling less stress. This is powerful knowledge in my weight loss arsenal.
I also learned that even though I struggle with setting boundaries – and that comes from not knowing enough about what I want and always being concerned about and catering to what others want – I have learned to set better boundaries, and I know that what I feel and care about is just as important as what others feel is important to them. And putting my needs first will serve me well physically and mentally.
I know I sound like a basket case. I’m not. It’s time to put the truth out there. In doing so, I create my own weight loss. Isn’t that what we all want for ourselves?
Take a look at the things you have learned about yourself. If you say there really isn’t anything new you have learned about yourself, then I say to you that you are unaware of all the remarkable things about you that make you, you.
I am fifty-five years old. The older I get, the more I learn that I’ve much to learn. Not just about the world, the people I love, and the people I want to know better, but I learn that just when I think I’ve got it all figured out, about myself and about life, something happens that gives me a hard kick in the ass.
At first it is tough to face that new reality, but it always provokes thought and concern. It sometimes is life-changing, and even when we are not certain if the life-changing moment is for the better, it is in the experience that makes us come alive, makes us strive to be better, and sets in motion moments of memory, of a new knowledge about ourselves and others, and provides us with an opportunity to achieve an accomplishment of sorts. Again, this is arsenal for losing weight.
Let the road you travel towards weight loss open up avenues of self-discovery. Enjoy the opportunity to change your life to the life you desire, and in doing so change the lives of others around you by setting an example and inspiring others. Every time you make a decision to lose weight, every time you accomplish small goals that eventually will lead to the goal of all goals, you are learning what it takes to be the best you can be.
I pray for all of our weight loss. If it takes the rest of my life, I am committed to reaching my goal. I just hope it doesn’t take the rest of my life, because I would love my focus to no longer be about learning to become a former fatty. Instead, I want to be on the road to learning to savor and enjoy every moment as former fatty.
Here, here to broadening our education about ourselves! Don’t let weight loss only be about a number on a scale. Let weight loss be a small part of a much grander event, the event of self-discovery and success at working to better us, and of continuously educating and opening our minds to all there is out there to accomplish and share.
Until we meet again, this is Linda Misleh Wagner, Future Former Fatty.