This monster is square, standing only an inch off the ground, and it has one eye, one glass eye. This beast is ferocious, yet there have been times when it has been kind and encouraging. The name of this monster is the bathroom scale.
The other day I stepped on the scale to see how I am doing on my lifestyle plan (notice I did not say diet). This devilish monster roared out at me a number that could only burn daggers into my heart, setting my mind into a downward spiral toward hell. I knew I shouldn’t have eaten those ribs and mashed potatoes last night.
This morning, the monster was kinder and gentler. It benevolently said I had lost the two pounds gained and was another pound down from the number the previous weigh-in. I smiled at the monster and said whispering “Yay!” to myself.
I know if the monster could talk there have been times when it would yell at me, “Seriously? You want to weigh yourself today after what you ate last night? Okay, Crazy. Hop on.”
I swear a few weeks ago, as I entered the bathroom shutting and locking the door behind me, I undressed. As I took off my earrings, I know that monster scale stared at me and bellowed, “Like taking off those earrings is going to help.”
Oh the humiliation of when I am not doing well. On the other hand, when I am doing well, the monster scale becomes my new best friend. It will speak to me, as ounce-by-ounce comes off, and say sweet things to me like, “Look at you! You really are doing it! Way to go! Keep it up!”
Oh, to only hear those sweet words to me every time I step on the scale. My day would be so wonderful if I only heard sweet words. I would know I am taking care of my health, changing my mindset, making strides to become the woman I know I am when I have a healthy body. It would bring peace as well to my tortured over my weight body.
So next time you come face to face with the monster in your bathroom known as the scale make amends with it. Give the monster a reason to be kind to you. Imagine life from its perspective. How would like to be the one to stare someone in the eye only to tell them they are too fat? Don’t give the monster scale a reason to yell at you, “Fat chance! Like you think you are thinner today! Yeah right.” Be kind to the scale and to yourself. Succeed at taking charge of your weight and your health and the monster scale will evolve into just a scale, no longer ominous and frightening. Until we meet again, this is Linda Misleh Wagner, Future Former Fatty.
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